well see

how this goes...

im supppperrr confused

on what i want...

ehhhh

i dont know what i want anymore....

things

will only get better now....

todays

the day.

split into two very different lives...

life one:
with an amazing guy who is going great places in life, has his shit together, treats me as if im the only girl in the world and the only thing that matters. im his princess. he makes me feel amazing. i can go party with him and have a good time, i get freedom.

life two: with an also amazing guy, he is confused about what he is doing with his life but he is still going places. we have so much history together. hes my best friend. i love being in his company. i love him. one thought of him makes me cry. but life with him is different. i do what he does and hang with his friends not my own. i dont get any freedom or get to do what i want to do. to many restrictions.

i dont know who to choose. my only problem with life one is that im afraid i can never fully give my heart away to him because it still belongs to life two. :\. im stuck in a messy situation.

Dazed & Confusedddd.

To much to soon.

what do i do?!

he's great but i don't want to be stuck in what i was before.

I just want to be free.

nothing to hold me back.

no laws.

just freedom.

Music

Sets me free.

it's never ganna change

We will always be in this rut. I hate my family life so much. I wanna do so much more with my life so my kids will never have to go through this.

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tears roll down my face,

I can not figure out why.

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What

is going on with my life. Where has it gone. When i say my life i mean him. We're drifting it feels.

I don't like this.

for once

I just want someone to believe in me.

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sunsets,

With him, are orgasmic.

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MY

I love my hubby Patrick Kelley, sure we yell, fight, cry, but most of all we love. He is the only person i feel close to latley. Seems like all my friends are drifting away, but he always seems to stay right by my side. He's super goofy which makes my stomache tickle. Keeps me on my toes. I love mostly everything about him [ not a fan of his childish activities] but i can deal. I love how we can just sit on the rocks staring at the wavescrashing into them, & just talk about the ocean and talk about stuff & not have to worrie about impressing each other or hooking up. Patrick Kelley is seriously the best boyfriend ever, & to all the girls who broke his heart in the past, YOU ARE STUPID, but i'm glad you did, because if you didn't i wouldnt have such an amazing life. So i'm thanking you.


I love him for him, as he loves me for me.


Mi Amor.<3

it's just a lyrical lie

made up in my mind.

I'm in love

And Couldn't Be Happier.

Part 2

Janine/Bailey/Dino's Birthday

i

love him.

The End

I saw this comeing.

! Who ! What ! When ! Where ! Why !

Who am i becoming ?

What am i doing ?

When will this all stop ?

Where should i be ?

Why do i do this to myself ?

my life.

One full day left till my big day,

Why don't i study,

Even as i talk about studying i do not take the time to do it.

Its like my mind has its own personality,

I've got to push through it and do whats right.

I cant let my mind take over me.

Ive got to do whats right.

life....

is to complicating for my young mind......

I

am in love, i've never felt this feeling before in my entire 17 years.

I am young, but i know what love is.


I wasn't so sure what love was 5 months ago.
But, ^{ive grown to learn.}

every step i take with him, i learn a little bit more.

I
fall for him everyday a little bit more....


you complete me....<3

Friends like these keep me going..<3

TRUST

main ingredient in a healthy relationship.

is our relationship healthy?

On my part... YES.

=]

STUPID

STUPID.

WOKEN UP

for no reason.

HAPPY VALENTiNES DAY;

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
nobody ^loves you,
as much as i do....

I am happier then ever.

♥

MOOD

I'm in one of those pissed off moods.

People shouldn't push my buttons today.



Shit's ^weak bro.

Of all honesty....

I could live with out you.
BUT
I would never want to.
You are my other ^half.
My ^{best friend.}
&
My love.

AT+PK<3

Anniversary

I love you.

STOP!


I think know i think to much.
I think know i over react.
I think know life is hard.
I think know i can do this.
I think know he is perfect.
I think know he is loyal.
I think know he loves me.
I think know my life is complete.

Dream.

I dare myself to follow my heart.

Go after what I want and what I want only.

My life is heading into success.

I can see it.

“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe..."

<3

"Whenever you make a mistake or get knocked down by life, don't look back at it too long. Mistakes are life's way of teaching you. Your capacity for occasional blunders is inseparable from your capacity to reach your goals. No one wins them all, and your failures, when they happen, are just part of your growth. Shake off your blunders. How will you know your limits without an occasional failure? Never quit. Your turn will come."

Discription.

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are."

True Love.

I've never felt this way before. Maybe once, but it wasn't as real as it is now. The feelings I have for him are undeniable. He has taken my heart to a whole new level. I don't want to ever imagine myself with another man. He has me weak at the knees. Every kiss with him is like a first kiss, I get butterflys like crazy. "Every time we kiss I can't think straight...." - Hey Monday. He is the only thing I look forward to everyday. This world is so shitty, & he can make it look so perfect. He is the only person I can spend every momment with & not get sick of. I dread being away from him. He is my Boyfriend, & my Best Friend, that's what I love the most about him. I can treat him like a boyfriend & a best friend. I guess you can say I fell head over heels for him.<3

Things that make me happy.

1.Patrick Kelley.
2.Chocolate.
3.Patrick Gregory Kelley.
4.Friends.
5.P.K.
6.Mom.
7.Patty.
8.Cuddling.
9.Him.
10.Love.
11.Patrick.
12.Cute text messages.
13.Pat.
14.Silly jokes.
15.PGK.
16.Sushi.