split into two very different lives...

life one:
with an amazing guy who is going great places in life, has his shit together, treats me as if im the only girl in the world and the only thing that matters. im his princess. he makes me feel amazing. i can go party with him and have a good time, i get freedom.

life two: with an also amazing guy, he is confused about what he is doing with his life but he is still going places. we have so much history together. hes my best friend. i love being in his company. i love him. one thought of him makes me cry. but life with him is different. i do what he does and hang with his friends not my own. i dont get any freedom or get to do what i want to do. to many restrictions.

i dont know who to choose. my only problem with life one is that im afraid i can never fully give my heart away to him because it still belongs to life two. :\. im stuck in a messy situation.

Dazed & Confusedddd.

To much to soon.

what do i do?!

he's great but i don't want to be stuck in what i was before.

I just want to be free.

nothing to hold me back.

no laws.

just freedom.

Music

Sets me free.

it's never ganna change

We will always be in this rut. I hate my family life so much. I wanna do so much more with my life so my kids will never have to go through this.

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tears roll down my face,

I can not figure out why.

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What

is going on with my life. Where has it gone. When i say my life i mean him. We're drifting it feels.

I don't like this.

for once

I just want someone to believe in me.

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