It was all lust,

I want the love back.







to late...

I want to

feel like I'm your girlfriend.




how's it feel to want, right? eh

Mi Amor,

I love you so much. You make everything so .much better. We've lasted for about 2 months now, so I'm assuming you're going to stick around. You put the biggest smile on my face. You're the only one who can make my day brighter by me just looking at you. People say I'm to young to even find love, that i should just wait. I'm glad I'm young and have found what I have been looking for. Anthony Rey, you are the only person I want to hold, kiss, love.... wake up next to. You are my heart, my inspiration.
<3

im terrified,

of what you're becoming.
I don't know who you are now.
I don't know how i can love someone like this,
my hearts caving in.

I'm scared.
I don't know what to do anymore.

Mi Amor.


I'm at a loss of words.

I fell,

head over heels for him.



Anthony Rey <3
Officially February 13, 2009 =]

I am

perfectly happy.

things are looking up for me.

getting to attached...

again...

i need to cool off. Not want him so bad.

I'm just setting myself up for failure,

i always do this.

I hate competing, but thats why there are rules right?

Why would i do this to myself.

I'll never be good enough for him. I just need to realize this.

My heart will break soon....

is that even possible to break something thats already so damaged?

Either way he will find a way.

Just as my heart starts to heal, it shatters even heavier then before.

You're doing this to yourself Amanda.

Resist

calling him today.

wait for him.

if he wants it bad enough, he'll work for it.

Confusion

takes over her mind.



No where else to look but forward.



Her head is in a daze of confusion.

She puts up a front.

Does anyone see through her?


I honestly dont think it is just a front. She has become what she has been convincing herself that she is.


This is not a front anymore.

This is her.